Me

If you are looking for something about spanking you can stop reading now. I am not at all in a spanking mood. I am really feeling lonely. I know everyone has these feelings from time to time, but right now it has the best of me. Its so hard not to get depressed. I feel like Im fighting a never ending battle with depression. When I was a teenager and beyond I always thought that by the time I was 30 I would be married, have kids, and just be a happy married girl. But thats not how life has worked for me. Yes, I have had fun. But the one thing I want most is to be married and start a family. Is that too much to ask for. Every day I see couples with their kids walking down the street. It just kills me every time. Sorry to vent today. I just have to get it out before I totally give up and do something stupid.

Watch Out Naughty Boys

I finally acted on my idea of spanking a guy. I bought a hair brush paddle from Walt . It is very well made and will definitely be easy to use. Now I just need the guy to spank. I have a couple who have already asked for it. Just dont know if they will ever actually follow through. We will see. But if you haven't checked out Walt's paddles Check them out. They are well made and fairly cheap as well.

Im in BIG TROUBLE!

Yesterday I had a really really bad day. One of those days where you just wish you could go back to bed and wish it never happened. It started off ok, I got to work and everything seemed fine. Then my boss came and asked me something. My desk is piled high with paper work and im working frantically to get it done.

My boss comes up to my desk and asks me for something. Without even thinking, I lied about to the boss and kept doing my work. As soon as I lied I knew my butt was in for it. S just got a brand new strap, and I knew he wasnt gonna be happy. So I got really mad at myself, and the rest of the day I just kept getting more and more angry. Not at anyone just at myself.

So I got in my car to drive home, knowing that I had to tell S that I screwed up AGAIN! I just started crying. Not a little cry, but full on sobbing. I hate letting him down. So here I am driving home crying and not paying attention to much of anything.

I look in my rearview mirror and there is a cop. I look down and I was going 60 in a 25. Yeah, BIG OOPS. Cop comes up, sees that I am crying and can tell I have been for awhile. He was really nice. He didnt even ask me for my lisence. Just told me that I needed to slow down so I would make it home to my family safely. I promised him I would and I was on my way.

I told S as soon as I could. He was so sweet about it. He only has a few rules and I had broken 2 of them. Lying and speeding. He told me he was just happy that I was safe. He also said he would overlook the speeding because of my frame of mind at that point in time.

I know I am going to get it bad. And I deserve it 100%. I asked him if he was going to give me a really bad spanking if he would tie my hands so I cant reach back. He said yes he would tie them. So now I know its going to be really really bad. The worst part of it is, I dont even know when we are going to get to spend alone time together again. We are going out this weekend hopefully, but spanking like that cant be done in public.

I hate waiting for a bg spanking. Last time by the time I got it when he walked in, I was mad. I didnt want it, and so I got mad. I didnt stay mad for long as my bottom started feeling like it was on fire. Does anyone else have to wait for a long period of time before they get a spanking that has been promised to them? If so, how do you deal with it?

Guys I need your help!

Lately I have been reading everything I can about F/M spanking. It really turns me on to think about it. I dont know why I had never concidered it before.

But here is the thing, I know that spanking (at least for me) is both physical and mental. I know that I can physically spank a guy (its not rocket science lol), but I dont know if I can do the lecturing and scolding and stuff like that.

Guys I need your help here. When you are getting spanked by your girl, what do you expect her to say? What is going through your mind? Does your girl scold you while she is spanking you? Would you let me spank you, even though I have no experience?

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For a long time I have thought that I am a bottom and thats all there is to it. Recently I have been asked by 2 different guys if I would be willing to spank them. I had honestly never thought about it before. The more I think about it, the more fun I think it would be. I am not sure I could do it or not. I guess I will find out when we get together in a few weeks.

Even if I find out that I couldnt spank him seriously, I still want to try. I know that sounds really odd, but hey, you only live once right? Has anyone else ever thought about switching roles just to see if you like it?

Im Amazed

Yesterday I said that I may be closing my blog for good. And then I got 550 hits to my blog in one day. Thanks to Bonnie and all of you stopping by, I may not be closing it. I am going to be a lot more careful about details. But I guess you all are stuck with me for now. I have to decide if I want to post more pics of me on here or not. We will see, only time will tell. But for the meantime, thanks for sticking with me!

Door may be closing

I may be closing my blog for good. With all the stuff in the news about people losing their jobs and things having to do with Myspace and with Blogs, I am beginning to think this is not worth it. I love this blog and have thoroughly enjoyed your comments and encouraging words. I just need some time to think this through. I dont know for certain if there is any way where anyone could actually figure out who I am but I am pretty sure there is. I just have to figure it all out!