Looking Ahead and Behind

The last few days have been crazy busy with regular life stuff. I am dreading Saturday, yet highly looking forward to it at the same time. I need a good spanking just to relieve some stress. I am dreading it cause it is for punishment, but really looking forward to the after care. S is such a sweet guy and really knows just how far to push me and knows exactly what to do for me afterwards. I really like how he pushes me at times and then at other times he is so tender and sweet. I trust him completely, which is kinda odd because I have never trusted a man 100%. I know I am going to get my bottom blistered, but I also know that he is doing it for my own good cause he cares so much about me.

My favorite part of his spankings is he always hugs me before he starts. Then he has me take off my pants and lay across his lap. At that point I am in total heaven. He rubs my bottom and squeezes it and swats it gently at first. He builds up the intensity and heat slowly. I love it when he uses his hand. After my bottom is all nice and pink he takes off my panties and again spanks with his hand, getting harder and harder. After Im all nice and warmed up he moves on to the different paddles and bathbrush. He is so awesome. Although I kinda want to feel the belt at some point, but I am totally terrified of it. I feel that if I can make it through the belt I can make it through anything.

Why cant I just be good!!!

Today I woke up in a really bratty mood. I dont know why, but sometimes I am just really crabby and dont want to do anything. Well, S got online and we were talking and of course I was being a really big brat. You think I would have learned that lesson by now. He told me that if I was going to be bratty he was going to blister my bottom. And I laughed at him and told him I was calling his bluff. How stupid can I be at times. Why cant I just keep my mouth closed and be good. He has never told me anything and not followed through. So now Saturday, I think im in for more then I can handle! (although he did say that he would never use ginger on me, whew!) But he also knows that I am deathly afraid of the belt, but I think I deserve it for being such a brat to him, even after I knew I was already going to get it good.

Birthdays

So today is S's birthday. So we get to go see the Pirates of the Caribbean together. I really enjoy spending as much time as possible with S. I made the sassy comment yesterday about it being his birthday so he needs a birthday spanking. He was so kind as to tell me that I could take it for him (he is so generous. lol) For his birthday I am ordering him a new paddle. Most of his are big and scary, so I found a cute little one for his collection. Although I am pretty sure that even though it looks cute that its gonna leave a good sting too. I can't wait till it comes so we can try it out. Although next weekend isn't gonna be very fun, but I have been good since I lied, so the weekend after that I hope we get to play the whole weekend long. I am looking forward to it greatly!

In Trouble

Ok, so here's the thing. I kinda lied about something, ok something pretty big. I said I did something and didn't. But I didn't think I was going to get caught, because I had plenty of time to get it done. Well, I totally forgot about it and now its too late. I not only lied but its still not done. So now I am in trouble.

Yes, I know discipline is for my own good. But it scares me so much. I haven't had a discipline spanking since I was little. So now I know I have one coming and it really scares me. The worst part of the whole thing is the not knowing. I know I have one coming but don't know when or what I am going to get it with. All I know is its going to be unpleasant. I know I deserve it, but I dont want it. I like the fun spankings and the stuff that happens after them. But the punishment one is gonna hurt. I hope it will happen next weekend so that I can just get it over with.

Does anyone else feel this way when they are gonna get a serious spanking?

How it all began

I was told that I should start blogging by my spanker. So I agreed and here we are. I am a 20 something woman looking for a future mate, that hopefully will be a spanko as well.

Although I have already met one of the most amazing guys ever. We met on one of the Spanking web sites that we both frequent. We hit it off right away. Our first meeting we just talked and I had a great time. Then we set up a time to meet for our first spanking.

We met at a hotel because neither of us have our own place. So it makes things a little more difficult, but a lot more exciting. I was so nervous driving to the hotel. It is about a 25 min drive from my place. But that day it seemed more like 3 hours. Everything in me kept telling me to turn around and go back home. But I kept going and met up with him. I am so glad I did. It was one of the best nights of my entire life.

He knows exactly what I need and when I need it. I got spanked bare bottomed for over an hour. He took the time to show me what each of the implements felt like and how they differ from one another, and how it felt when baby oil was applied. He didn't spank hard, but all of those swats really add up. My bottom was really sore, but I was so highly turned on. We went to bed and talked for a long time before we fell asleep.

The next morning he just kept swatting my bottom. Which totally lit a fire somewhere else. He gave me another spanking and then we were off, back to our own places. It was an incredible night. We have met again since then, but I wont bore you with the details at this time.


ANON- We met on Spanking Internet. Its a free site and has a chat room, although one needs to be careful in there cause there are some people out there that are just interested in hurting others.